Lessons Learned

So I have learned a valuable lesson in life.  People always tell me that "opportunity" knocks and if you don't take that chance then things will never happen.  I'm sure in my lifetime, I have let many opportunities pass me by without acting on them.  You know, the "go getters" always go after something that they want.  I'm more calculated about the chances I take and the things that I go after.  For example; I returned to college giving up a career that had some meaning in my life to try to better myself and put my self in a position to capture opportunities when they come up.  It was not a rash decision nor an easy one to make.  Going in debt more than I've ever been before to finish something I should have finished a long time ago.  Even more doing it the way I did it, drop everything and move across the country, 2000 miles away from my friends and family.  But I couldn't have done it any other way.  

I spent the summer back in Ohio, a place that I love and hate.  I' not sure why, but I felt that there was nothing there for me.  I mean no opportunity.  Career wise there isn't.  I just can't call up an old friend and go have a beer now, so there is hours of thinking about what I have done.  I can't go back, not now.  I have to move forward.   

So back to the lesson learned.  Unlike most people, I think I'm more considerate than most.  I think of the other person first.  I put my needs and wants behind what is good for the group or individual.  Why?  I don't know. I've always been like that.  I guess my parents raised me to make sure I take care of business before thinking about myself.  8 years as an EMT thinking about other people, putting myself second to the job.  No money but a dedication that propelled me to get up in the morning and head to work.  So what propels me now?  One, I have a mission to finish college and do the best I can, and right now I'm pulling all A's this semester and I'm pretty proud of that.  As for anything else, it's all gone now.  I have lost motivation for most everything else in my life.  Here is analogy of why.  It's like a gambler walk p to the table and has his life's earnings, places one bet and looses everything and now he has nothing.  That's my lesson learned.  Don't place all your chips on one bet.  

When you risk your most prized possession and you loose it, then what do you have left?  

A million miles separates you from what you desire and nothing you do can get you any closer to regaining that prized possession.   That's my lesson.   When you cherish something, don't risk it on anything that is not a guarantee.  

I've lost my most cherished possession...   Not sure if I'll ever get it back..